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WHyyyyyyyy do I suck SO BAD at ICC?! I am placating myself with a host of reasons. That I have not really been paying attention, that it will take me awhile to get good at playing online, which is odd and disorienting, and I like no time to distract me and being able to hold my captured pieces and see theres, I will get better over time and not always suck, and should expect to suck at firxst doing something new against people who've been doing it awhile. But it still won't soothe the infuriating rash of sucking REALLY BAD. AHH! Slit wrists over ICC, have no self-esteem no mo.

Okay, emoticon, not THAT sad.

Fuck being cool, I actually am really bummed at my sucking. And at people being able to see your game history and current game. WTF is that? Embarassing is what. Like people looking at my grades. Ewwwwwwww. I hope no one ever does it to me again, it's just humiliating.

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WHyyyyyyyy do I suck SO BAD at ICC?! I am placating myself with a host of reasons. That I have not really been paying attention, that it will take me awhile to get good at playing online, which is odd and disorienting, and I like no time to distract me and being able to hold my captured pieces and see theres, I will get better over time and not always suck, and should expect to suck at firxst doing something new against people who've been doing it awhile. But it still won't soothe the infuriating rash of sucking REALLY BAD. AHH! Slit wrists over ICC, have no self-esteem no mo.

Okay, emoticon, not THAT sad.

Fuck being cool, I actually am really bummed at my sucking. And at people being able to see your game history and current game. WTF is that? Embarassing is what. Like people looking at my grades. Ewwwwwwww. I hope no one ever does it to me again, it's just humiliating.