Sam's birthday is Sunday. He's doing well in math, but is disappointed because his snake won't move like the snake in Harry Potter; he wanted a pet to talk to him, not just be sleepy all the time.
I think he'll like his presents. Meghan made me promise to be home for her birthday. I'll have to skip philosophy, but I'm sure I can make the professor understand. If I get home in time, I can make Sam a birthday cake. A dirt cake should be simple enough, and he'll like the gummy worms. Plus everyone loves dirt cake. It's a matter of getting Molly to wash the flowerpots and buy the ingredients before I get there.
The day after my birthday, Gaimen is speaking at University of Chicago. If I wouldn't have to skip two classes and a workshop to get up there, I'd be all the fuck about hitting my favorite noodle place and seeing the lecture. Readings, an interview, $15, I could sleep at Aunt Sallie's in Evanston and wake early, driving back in time for my 12:30 philo. Grueling, but do-able. I must be insane for seriously contemplating this.
Mom seems, at least temporarily, fine with the lease, fine with the sublease/transfer possibilities. All is good on that front. It is an idea to be rationally considered. I give this university summer session and next fall (applications due something like November). If nothing works for me, bright lights, big city (if, of course, I get accepted). As much as I hated Stanford, I loved that week in Berkeley. Hard to get into... but impossible?
On the not merely academic side: What are your thoughts on feminist lit crit in the fresh Bay Area air, walks in Muir woods, working at that overpriced restaurant with the great sandwiches at Stinton Beach? I will embrace my stereotype and learn to backpack for days at a time, live in a co-op and go Marxist-Dworkin crazy. Or maybe be a Julie-recluse and be solitary, scholarly for a while. That highway from Muir Woods to Stinton Beach was ridiculous, the most beautiful thing I've ever seen- you ride the edge of the ridge forever, curving like my hair, and it's death-defying, and then there is the town and the jewel-blue bay and it's so unexpected you float with delight. Defy Magnetic Fields and never come back from San Francisco.
But I musn't be romantic. I must choose what to do logically, soberly. But I am restless, and for the first time in months, excited by the future.
I think he'll like his presents. Meghan made me promise to be home for her birthday. I'll have to skip philosophy, but I'm sure I can make the professor understand. If I get home in time, I can make Sam a birthday cake. A dirt cake should be simple enough, and he'll like the gummy worms. Plus everyone loves dirt cake. It's a matter of getting Molly to wash the flowerpots and buy the ingredients before I get there.
The day after my birthday, Gaimen is speaking at University of Chicago. If I wouldn't have to skip two classes and a workshop to get up there, I'd be all the fuck about hitting my favorite noodle place and seeing the lecture. Readings, an interview, $15, I could sleep at Aunt Sallie's in Evanston and wake early, driving back in time for my 12:30 philo. Grueling, but do-able. I must be insane for seriously contemplating this.
Mom seems, at least temporarily, fine with the lease, fine with the sublease/transfer possibilities. All is good on that front. It is an idea to be rationally considered. I give this university summer session and next fall (applications due something like November). If nothing works for me, bright lights, big city (if, of course, I get accepted). As much as I hated Stanford, I loved that week in Berkeley. Hard to get into... but impossible?
On the not merely academic side: What are your thoughts on feminist lit crit in the fresh Bay Area air, walks in Muir woods, working at that overpriced restaurant with the great sandwiches at Stinton Beach? I will embrace my stereotype and learn to backpack for days at a time, live in a co-op and go Marxist-Dworkin crazy. Or maybe be a Julie-recluse and be solitary, scholarly for a while. That highway from Muir Woods to Stinton Beach was ridiculous, the most beautiful thing I've ever seen- you ride the edge of the ridge forever, curving like my hair, and it's death-defying, and then there is the town and the jewel-blue bay and it's so unexpected you float with delight. Defy Magnetic Fields and never come back from San Francisco.
But I musn't be romantic. I must choose what to do logically, soberly. But I am restless, and for the first time in months, excited by the future.